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Ok, I need to learn to calm down about some issues. I am getting over stressed during critical points at work. It’s like this beast of the internet is running through my veins and when something goes wrong it tears me apart. I can make myself physically sick over stressful moments dealing with stuff.

I guess the stress comes from the lack of control over a situation. An example would be the incident that just happened. Basically a part of the internet said good night and went to sleep when it shouldn’t have. My job is to contact the people to fix it. Well, no where in my little super dooper adress book of important people to call and wake up was a clearly labeled person to call and fix. There were no escalation procedures for this problem. I checked with the local internet alarm clock people and they all agreed there’s a problem and I needed to contact their brothers in arms across the ocean. Just they didn’t know their number either. I contacted the equivalent of my position over there and they were having the exact same problem, they couldn’t find the frigging person’s phone number to contact either. After he exclaimed many foul words, not at me just at the situation, we parted ways and I looked for more help elsewhere.

This is when the Real stress starts. I start to call people and no numbers are working. All the cell phone numbers are either turned off or not working. I hate this part, it happens everytime something like this happens. End up calling everyone in the world and only the Director’s number is correct.

Ohh well, I guess I need to learn to relax in situations that are out of my control and not let the stress tear me apart. As long as I do my job good to the best of my ability then what does it matter beyond that if someone else has a problem with it.